Portland... Can I Stay?
I could not have been more wrong about everything...
Three weeks of this beauty is simply not enough. I’m in disbelief of my certainty that I won’t get attached to anything in my adventures. Putting limits on what your soul desires is like telling your heart to not fall in love... with moments, places, people, nature, etc. Impossible!
Home is not a physical place, it’s a feeling within. And the more I experience it in the rugged cliffs, in the ancient forests, at the tiny tea shops in towns, in the sacred moments shared with other humans, the more I realize that I belong in all those places simultaneously. I am part of them, and so are you.
Travel opens your heart like nothing else does. In my sound bath session tonight, as I felt my body dissolve into infinite pieces and cease to exist as a solid entity, I received the following message so freaking clearly I felt it tremor through my cells, “getting lost is part of the journey in finding yourself.”
I’ve been wondering about that for a long while now... my journey stared in January with a simple idea to go explore places I have always wondered about. But the question of “what I am looking for out there” lingered. The more magic I encountered, the more LOSS I felt. The strong sense of having to “give it all up” again and again and again left a lot of emptiness. Every little thing that I felt so much love for would be forfeited in favor of the unknown every time I drove off. I would maximize my days to the point of exhaustion, chase experiences, go to all the events, meet so many people I couldn’t possibly keep in touch with all of them. And each time, I felt my inner battle between joy and fear.
These last few weeks, as I pondered my haunting reality, the answers kept coming and the truth has finally set in. I can absolutely LOVE each and every moment or place without feeling like I’m losing it. Because our capacity for love is limitless! All of these places are “home” because the true home is the peace within our hearts...
All this time of feeling lost, and it lead me to exactly where I needed to be. Thank you, dear universe. 💫
